Thursday, May 12, 2011

Day Twenty-One: A picture of something you wish you could forget

This was an easy challenge for me . . . piece. of. cake.

I wish I could forget the Medela Symphony Breast Pump--and the majority of breastfeeding in general. 

The above pictured apparatus is honestly all I remember about my first week home with Jackson, and that makes me very sad.  His tongue-tie meant that he couldn't latch on property, forcing my dependence on this breast pump to give him breast milk.  For almost 3 weeks, I "hooked up to the milker" instead of feeding my baby myself--out of guilt--every 3 hours around the clock.  I knew deep down that this was not really working for anyone, but I continued out of guilt--I had convinced myself that I must breast feed my son--or else!

Now I know better--that the most important thing as long as nobody goes hungry--is to relax and enjoy one other during the precious, fleeting time.  For our next child, I'm still unsure whether I will event attempt breastfeeding again.  If I do, however, one thing is for certain:  I will not rent one of these breast pumps, and if it doesn't work out, I will stop torturing myself--guilt-free!

1 comment:

Mom said... that...and Jackson is still perfectly healthy and you...