I'm going to be brutally honest. Breastfeeding was the most difficult and painful thing I have ever experienced. Yes, I know everyone tells you that the first 6 week are the hardest. They say "If you can just get through the beginning, it gets easier. You'll really enjoy it then." Well, Jackson's tongue tie resulted in my dependency on a hospital grade Medela breastpump and a subsequent kinship with dairy cattle. I did explore the option of working with a Lactation Consultant, but at $195/hour, I thought this a bit steep for someone to look at my boob. My plight as it was, I "hooked up to the milker" for 2.5 weeks, but I finally caved. "This just isn't working for anyone!" Much to my guilt and dismay, I switched Jackson to formula at 3 weeks. Since then, it's been trial and error to find the right formula for my boy. He has severe acid reflux, and is very spitty. We've tried 5 different formulas since I stopped pumping, and I think we've finally found the winner with Enfamil AR. Jax still has major spit-ups several times a day, but at least he's fat and happy. To those women who are able to breastfeed, or heck, who actually find pleasure in doing so, I salute you. I really do. But for those who, like me, decide that it just 'isn't for you and your baby,' don't be too hard on yourself either. Take that from someone who thought she'd never forgive herself.